I'm just updating really quick before I attempt to breastfeed. 

Olivia Grace
Born: Oct. 3rd @ 39w2d
Time: 5:22pm
Weight: 6lbs 13oz
Length:  19 3/4 in

She's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.  I love her more than words can say....If only she would latch on.  :)  I'll try to post pictures later I usually have difficulties if anyone wants to help me with that that would be great.  Otherwise feel free to add me to myspace and have a look.  :)

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I went into the dr's today and found out that I'm already starting to dilate! I'm only 1cm but I'm 50% effaced already! yikes! She was so low that the dr had a hard time finding my pelvic bone. It's starting already. I feel it's too soon. I'm excited and anxious....eek! I'm going to have a baby soon. She will probably be born around her due date but I was worried that she was going to be late even though in my head I was saying early. The dr said he doesn't think she'll be late. So yay....

I went to the dr's yesterday and found out that I'm having a GIRL!!!!!!  YAY!!!  I'm so excited!

Well this is my baby at 12 weeks. It not real yet to me at all. I expected it to look like something familiar I guess. Like OOOH so that's what's inside of me. that makes sense. But no....It looks like someone else's baby. Is that sad??

Today was the worst. It started out crappy because I didn't sleep well at all. Then I was excited because I had a dr's appoinment scheduled for today. Well come to find out that they don't have dr's in on monday and they never scheduled an appointment for me at all. So they are going to see me tomorrow but I was kind of upset about the whole ordeal because Jeff took time off work today for it and he can't go tomorrow. I'm bumed about that. Oh and the lady said that the reason she disbutes that I ever had an appointment today was because they don't have dr's in on monday morning! She just called me a liar!!! What??!?! UGH!!

Things have been going good with the pregnancy. My morning sickness is lightening up kind of. I don't feel nauseous too much anymore but brushing my teeth has become something I don't like to do much in the morning only. Today it wasn't good at all. Well I'm beat and just wanted to record that my

Yesterday I bought a used car. It's a 2000 Nissan Sentra SE and it's pearl white. I've always wanted a pearl white car. It's nice. It has 69,000 miles on it. My payments aren't that high but I will have to move out of my apartment. For now I guess I'll move into my parents. We had a talk yesterday about rules and what they expect of me. Which isn't much of anything. YAY! So I'm pretty much free to do what I want. So that's a good thing. I have a few months to move out of my apartment as they are paying my car payment for three months. So that's awesome but I would like to get out as soon as I can and save the extra rent money. I hate the idea of living with my parents but right now I don't see any other way. I'm going to look for a cheap place for my cousin and I to move into though so that way I can feel like I'm living on my own. haha!! I'm very excited about this car. I like the seat belts. I know that's a silly thing to like but my escort had those electric ones. I don't like those. The Sentra also has new tires and brakes and the registration doesn't expire until next year. So that's awesome!! Lets see what else. I guess the situation seemed like it sucks but moving in with someone will allow me to go back to school. I think I'll take some accounting classes. It couldn't hurt me to know something about numbers. I like working with numbers anyway. once I get the hang of what I'm doing. I really like this car it doesn't take forever to get up to speed like my other car but that means it's easier to speed in. I'll have to be careful. Well I guess that's it for now. YAY!!

I've finally joined the rest of the grown up world and got my drivers license. WOO HOO!! It's not that great yet. We'll see. I'm nervous about driving alone. I drove to my grandma's tonight but that's three blocks away. I'll have to drive to work tomorrow. EEK!

Today I was asked to be in a commercial for work. It was unexpected. On Friday we got a call saying that some people who were going to do a commercial were going to come by and look at a car but that was it. They came in and I just so happened to be up front and the guy kept looking at me and said I would be perfect. So I said a few lines for them and that was it. It was weird. I doubt they will use whatever I did because I was a total retard. But it was neat just to be considered. :D

I forgot! Nikki got me a pattern as a thank you for letting her stay with us. It was a shock. I had been drooling for this pattern since I set eyes on it a few years ago. :D

( Drool )

I can't wait to start working on this!

My dog was attacked by two rottweilers today while my mom was walking her. She's okay. My mom freaked out and brought her here. There was a spot of blood on her back and it looks like there is a huge bruise on her back and some scratches on her tummy. We are going to take her to the vet in the morning and then call some type of animal control. I think the Vet's have to report it if we go see them. That's my news for the evening. My poor puppy!

KC and I saved over $1300 today shopping at kohl's. He actually went shopping on his lunch break and got some stuff. Everything with a red tag is $3. It was pretty awesome! We even got a hoover vacuum for $3!!! So exciting!

AHHH!!! I'm ready to scream! So I get there and the lady is all right, whatever. We are going along okay I guess when she asks me to turn left onto this street. She said turn left at the intersection. Well the cars in the turn lane were kind of in my lane...i could have gone around if I were to straight. No big deal you say? Well it would have helped had she actually given me time to do it. She told me at the last minute so i almost hit the guy in front of me. Then she freaked out after that again because there was a car turning and I took my foot off the gas and went to stop and she yelled at me to stop and we were a good 300 feet away. And he was already out of the way. So I'm pissed. She even admitted that she knew I wasn't going to make it on time when she told me to turn. Oh well. My next appointment is on Thrusday. So we'll see...maybe I'll do better then. Hopefully I won't have the same instructor and i'll have a nicer one. But for now I feel like a loser. :(

Yes it's time for me to join the rest of the adult world. I'm going for my driving test today. I'm very nervous and don't know what to expect. It's not a great day today. It's overcast and there is some drizzle/mist.

Wish me luck!

happy mother's day!!!!

Yesterday was a bad day. Nothing really about it was great. It was the end of the month that really got to me. Things weren't going right and people kept putting me off because they need to get stuff done. I can appreciate that but I was doing the payroll for the Techs. I needed to get it done. It was busy yesterday morning so I could barely get anything done and it was just a little crazy.

Then when I thought that the headache was over an hour before I'm supposed to go home I get a call from a man saying that he is a Physician and he needed to get to the hospital but his car broke down and he needed someone to go bring him another car. He didn't want to go to voice mail and if I sent him there he was going to "sue my ass" and never drive his car again. Lately the service guys haven't been answering their phone because we just got voice mail. It would be fine if they got back to them within a timely manner but they don't. So I get a lot of angry service calls. And pardon me but this guy does know that he called a car dealership right? Some of the things he was saying would lead me to believe the answer is no but when you reach voicemail you get a recording stating that you've reached the Saturn Service Department. I paged available service people I had a sales man go out there to see where they were and what they were doing so I could tell this man that they were busy and no matter what I did they weren't going to answer the call and he should probably find another way to get to the hospital. I get one the phone and he starts saying I have your family member and it's an emergency and I can't get a hold of anyone. He's very upset yelling at me. I try to tell him what's going on and he said he didn't want to "fucking" talk to me and he didn't want to "fucking" hear what I have to say. Then he kept asking my name over and over. I didn't give it to him so he started to yell at me. So I told him that I didn't like the language he was using and if he continued i would hang up on him. I hung up on him. He didn't call back. But I mean come on....really? Your car breaks down and you have an emergency and have to get to the hospital and you call the saturn dealer. How about 911? How about a cab? He was all the way in Camarillo. Granted it's not that far but it's about 15 miles away or so. I just talked to the service adviser and he said he had spoken with him a little earlier then I did and he didn't give him such a hard time but he was upset. Whatever.

So I figure going home would be nice. I would get to practice with the driving. Which isn't so much practice anymore. And I'm driving down a two way street and all of a sudden I get make up in my eye. I think if I just blink enough it will come out. NOOO!! I want to close both my eyes and the one that has something in it won't open and is gushing tears. I have tears streaming down one side of my face. I'm driving semi toward the sun so I pull over. It was awful. My eye was puffy and I had tears all over my face and I had to sit there for a bit after getting it out just so it would stop tearing.

It just wasn't a great day yesterday. The girl here at work annoys me. She's pregnant and thinks she's eating better and that she knows everything. But she doesn't. She stopped taking her prenatal vitamins because they make her constipated. No other reason. She hasn't taken them for about a week. She was telling me how hungry she was and she went and got a bag of chips. And everytime I see her eat something like that I just look at her and she says "I haven't had junk in a while. I don't usually eat like this. It's just that I don't have anything else with me." But that happens about 3 times a week and the other girl that's up there with her says she eats like that all the time. It's just a peeve.

I guess that's all.



I hope this day is better.

this man, Dean Karnazes, is impressive. I was on my way into work today listening to Kevin and Bean and they were interviewing that man. He was talking about how he ran this 200 mile race but since it was ONLY 200 miles he decied to run the 62 miles it took him to get there. Once he ran 100 miles just to get to a race. It's amazing. He can run 30 miles like it's nothing. I can't believe it. I can't even run half a mile...lol

woo hoo! I get to pick up my car tomorrow. That's so weird to say. I got a Ford Escort. it's not great but it's good enough. YAY!! It will get me to work and back home again and a few places in between!! YAY!! Okay that's enough. EEEEE!!

I'm so in love with this right now...I don't know why. I want an Icon of this bunny...he's so adorable

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/moresexthanme.html

It's official....we've had more rain then Seattle this season. We've gotten 12 inches of rain when they've only had 5. And it looks like we are going to get more. Right now it's pouring out. It's supposed to rain until at least tuesday. Great. That's when Casey's dad comes out. Nothing's going on here lately. I feel lame. I have a cold so I've spent my days and nights drugged up. I found out that Raelene at work is pregnant. She's trying to decide if she wants to keep it or not. Last night she thought about it and she thinks that she won't. But I think she's waiting for someone to tell her what to do. We'll see. KC and I have been doing all right, I think. I don't really know what's going on with him, but I never do. I don't really talk to anyone. I don't really want to. I'm going to have two whole days without KC this week. I'm looking forward to it. I guess that's about it.




lame....